FlutE....thE BEST

lurVe

2006-12-23T20:37:00.000-08:00

haiiisss.....wat's wid ppl dey juz nvr noe how 2 treasure...i'm saying abt myself...
tat's y nows i'm so helpless....
welllsss...it's okiess coz i've juz learnt d art of being contented...tat's y nows i feels so much better...ppl may say tat i'm juz stupid consoling myself...but i'm norts coz i noe thats wat i reallie wan...

as humans we always tink wats best 4 us...but we haven't reallie remind ourselves on wat we wan...n in these processes we hurt ppl tat we lurve...so yups...i'm differentss...

bio freaks R US!!!

2006-10-31T18:33:00.000-08:00

yeahs...402 bio cleared liaoX!!!!!!

all ready n geared up for the next paper liaox marhs???

heheX...

i'm mads nows...all bio gal turn bio-less!!!so sads....i dun wans leis...how can lyk that???HOPE POLY DEN CAN TAKE BIO STILL....heheX...i'm mads...

all 402 okies surely pass bio den dun dui bu qi miss teo deX yi pian hao yi....
tis reallie marks d start of our o's n also the near end of our secondary journey...
can't take it liaox...

402's unity is not much of d big tink last time...but nows our class reallie united...ever since the dae where we have d concert....our big be ourselves dae tinky ehs...all roxs on!!!

dun feel lyk leaving our class behind after all d 402 siaoXness!!!!madness n ppl all i miz deX...

jannie d choco milk
nettes d NCC freak
shar d 28
cheng d long hair fringe
eng d sharp voice
bK d cutes
keith d study study gal
stella d gothic
zhirong d chicken
zhengwei d grasshopper
mumu d cow
soyah d beans
feeza d hi 5 gal
zura d quiet yet funni gal

all of muz jia yous n we all will go sot 2gether!!!!

okies...btw...i gtg liaoX...

n yeas a note 4 my dear...............

i reallie dunno how 2 b a gud gal 4 u...i reallie everytink oso dunno...so muz b more tolerant wid mi...lolx....wish u would b more understanding toward tis....i reallie so sads coz i dunno how to make you happie....i hope u would teach mi how....

241006

2006-10-29T04:30:00.000-08:00

i'm so lost....can sum1 help mi out????

i feel lyk asking god 2 lighten my load....i'm not afraid of o's leis...i dunno y...i'm still not scared....how can tat be???

feel lyk being tied down...many tinks happen n go....

feel lyk no more energy 2 run liaoX...dunno y lately keep got nightmares......bt seriously i'm not reallie scared abt them liaoX...coz dey keep repeating....maybe it's a sign i dunno...

tis gal here lyk numb_ing 2 everytink....lost of senses....not his fault...not ani1's fault coz is my fault...sumtimes i wonder y i fight wid millions of other sperms cells 16 years be4...y we fight 2 get born n fight for our survival den after we were born.....we get dump wid stress???whY????i seriously dunno....

i'm so sads leis....bt who can tell???who can c???

nobody will bother 2 ask.....

i wan change name 2 nobody n no one....i wan 2 b ard wid all d sad ppl always 2 comfort them...coz dey always sae....no one or nobody is widd them....den if my name is nobody i'm dere....dey wun feel that ani longer...i'm always dere listening n waiting 4 sum1 2 reach out their hand 2 reach d little yet afraid me inside....will ani1 do that???

haiYas....neverminds...i wan 2 b happies but sumtimes its gotta take a very heavy price 2 b so....who will b willing 2 pay that price 4 mi???

will u b d one????

or you will not????

i'm nots sures...........bt i'll give u all d happiness u wan if u teach mi how....coz it's lyk i'm so noob 2 all these okies???i dunno how 2 make u believe mi....honestly i dunno.....bt i'm afraid 2 lose u....

if u unhappie tell mi wat i can do.....

juz dun leave after all u have done________

baq????

2006-10-11T06:01:00.000-07:00

heys heys every1...i'm baq...

every1 keep sae i neva tag or blog........todae mood okies okies ....so grant 1/2 of your wishes...i blog lorX...hahaX...

haiyas...i missed my 2nd f.i.r concert...bt its okies.....i've learnt 2 hack care...

recently learnt alot...

learnt tt guys r kinda untrustable bastards maybe except a few...bt dun b too happy if you r a guy reading tis n tell yourself tt you r d few!!!*tsk tsk...bhb...*
was kinda tinking thru sumtinks n found out tt guys lyk 2 act n lie...wateva lorx...i'm not tt dumb...nvm....before ppl sae i gt a grudge against sum guys...n yups...cheng u r rites....shuld nt disgrace gals....i finalli understand....bt i juz wanna tell u i hate waiting...bt i tink tt if its worth waiting 4 den i might wait...bt nows NO ONE is fit 2 b in tt position yet...so yups...

yups yups...>.<...sharlene arhx sharlene you 2 liang ge mei nu so hardworking scarying mi u noes...i noe o's is near bt dun 4get wors...dun eva do anitink silly liaoX...nid ani help 4 ani tink i'll try my best 2 help you dex...okies????

lastly 2 all my 402 FRENS!!!!!!LOOK HERE!!!

JIa youS!!!!!!

WE CHIONG AS A CLASS!!!!!

WORK HARD AS A CLASS!!!!

NEXT YR WE WILL DEFINITELY GRADUATE AS A CLASS!!!!

AFTER PROM GO CLUBBING WORX!!!!!!

N yUps....AFTER O's we rock as a CLASS!!!!!

1 year liaox~~~

2006-09-09T11:37:00.000-07:00

it's has been 1 year liaoX....i'll nv forget wat u have done 4 mi....wish we could b frens 4eva....yeah???

i still remember how u helped mi...

how u acc mi when i'm down...

how u cheer mi ups....

how we 2 fight over some stupid tinks...

how u juz make mi smile over our stupidity....

chem teacher ehs????
u will always b d perfect teacher!!!i rmb how glory is felt...coz i passed ny chem once becoz of ur coaching...thanks!!!!you are d best!!!!

tell you wat!!!!i'm gonna score tis chem test 4 you!!!!!

wells...wish our frenship will last 4eva!!!!
happie 1 yr frenship 4 us!!!!
hope u will read tis coz its 4 u!!!

cheer ups n control ur temper yeah???
wanna tell you tt i'll be here no matter if u ignore mi or nots....so yups...

guys...what are dey????

2006-09-05T03:20:00.000-07:00

lolx...guys r suckers...enough of sucking my blood larx...lolx....

tzsy!!!

dunno wat 2 write oso...ppl r so untrustworthy....wells...

frens sae i'll b d last person who will suffer frm depression lorX...bt aniways...i always believe tt...A SMILE CAN HIDE A THOUSAND TEARS....have u come across tt phrase???wells....if not den find d meaning coz its true ...realli!!!

wells....i'm nt sure wat's wrong wid mi bt tell ur wat larX...i'm sumhow feel stuck.........sumhow wan to be released by sum1 sumtink or sumwhat...bt is dunno wat...haiyas....i'm desperate 4 help larx...if ani1 can pls help mi...i feel lost...pls guide mi baq 2 my sheep pen...haiyas...realli blur nows...sumhow feel scared...

lolx...

gtg liaoX...haiyas......bb.....

searching 4 my rite motive of life....n why i'm still living here....btw...i'll b gone soon............it doesn't matter.....not 2 ani1....

wat Do u caLL sum1 hu can't slp???

2006-08-17T22:58:00.000-07:00

wat Do u caLL sum1 hu can't slp???
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
lolx...ans 4 tt qns is mE!!!

argh....spent mani daes nt being able 2 fall alsleep....now it's getting on my nerves....
i dunno wat can i do....counting sheeps n everytink....i did....i even count till 2583....den i stop coz its lame....
gosH...wonder wat ppl do if dey can't slp....
do dey count sheeps???
i dunno...bt juz wondering lorx...
kinda have a short fuse lately...dunno y...
maybe sch gets us nuts...
kinda dumb though...
experiments' daes r lyk so not over n wat's more prelims r here soon....guess more oil is needed den....dunno...sort of run out of fossil fuel soon...
kind of tired of life larx...
ups n downs...roller coaster lorX...
well....i'm juz.............
sick
tired
not in d mood 2 have anitink else....*nt as if ani1 could give mi wat i realli wan....*
besides.......................
i dun even noe wat n how 2 study animore....later gt bio mock....n i'm here playing larx...kinda sux bt i juz dun care liaox....den after tt gt job stuffs....
i dunno lorX...
haiyas...i wish i can stay alive even after o's lorx....if i can't den tt's it liaox....>.<...

gtg......
tired+sick= ME!!!

EXperImenTS...

2006-08-01T06:47:00.000-07:00

okies...i'm baQ!!!
lolx...realli long time nv blog liaOX...bt 1st gonna tink n find a way muz give tis blog a new look 1st...haiYas....siaNz lehs....gt no ideas...coz i lyk stars...lyk sky...lyk sunflowers...lyk tis lyk tt...den lyk dumb larX...keep finding n finding....den lyk no avail....haiyas...i dunno lorX...maybe juz stick to tis tink....
haiYas....nvm...i'll squeese time 2 do tis...*honestly sae...i've no more time...*haiyas....well.....i'll tink of sumtink baX....
nowadaes...class keep teaching abt chemical analysis stuffs...n all...benedict's test...starch test...kinda interesting at 1st...bt do so mani times den lyk super boring n sianS...wat's more i burnt my hand 2dae...*grumbles*haiyas....now kinda SUPER DUPER careFUL wid heating test tubes...
bt thanks god tt 2dae's test 4 reducing sugar n starch isn't tt bad compared to tt of the yeast ystdae...*YucKs!!*d smell of yeast is enough 2 lyk kill let's sae ouyr class????eWWwww...d guys were lyk so over-reacting lorX...put tissue here n dere....bt at least in d end it made mi save some money by making mi skip my dinner n lunch...although nt entirely bt at least it's so ruined my appetite........how d hell did we pop bread into our mouth when it has yeast!!!!!!no wonder holy communion has none of it...tt's y considered holy....
enough of sci!!!!
eng n ss oso d same...essays...n source base after source base...lyk wat d hell lorX...do compre lyk will work...haiYas...no fairS....den everytink lyk so not implaced....wat d hell...hate it!!!!on wits end...nvm.......will sumhow work out i tink....
btw...gtg..................

haPpieZ....

2006-06-04T23:14:00.000-07:00

heheX...is sch dae agin.....lolX...

dunno y so haPpiEs....

maYbes reaLLi coz these fEw daes i'Ve solveD my proBs...so natUrallY i zhi zu leZ...den haPpies lorx....heheX....

dunno....

reaLLi`s piSssed oFf wiF sum bitcH in my liFe....tHankS arhx...get uR reTributioN soon deX...dun worrY worX...one dae go out dEn will get whacked....nt by mi or watsoeva...but Is beCoz mani pPl oso nT haPpiEs wif ya deX....deY preTend 2 lyk u....Thanks aniways....coZ w/o u i dunno tt i havE knoWn d real meaning oF tRue freNz....u tell him as though as iT's my faUlt....have u reaLLi tot tt it's oSo ur Fault????sureLy nEvA riteX????haiyas....

bt nvM...wat's d past is dA past....
i dUN WANT TO BE TRAPPED IN UR CLAWS
I WANT TO BREATHE COZ OF MYSELF....
NO WAY OR WAT EVA TT I'LL GO BAQ tO UR CRUEL TORTURE.....

thanks 4 teaching mi tt i shuld nevA abandon my true n reaL frenx....tt i'll neVa GET TIRED OFF...ask urself wat u did...i believe i have D riteX nt 2 teLL ya deX...y shuld i tell u when u definitely wun admit DeX....

on dA oTheR hanD..................................

thaNKs SharLenE___my PorrIdGe partnEr____lolX...*chio Bus*
SheryL_____d beaUty wif brAins_____
EiEng______d gaL who looks iNnoCent___bt ArguE v.v.v.v.gUds_____
GeoK chenG_____my last yR cheatinG partNer___geoG class dreamer 4 aFter o'S____

yuPs....gtg...............................

RAinIe's bdaE

2006-06-04T09:53:00.000-07:00

special dae_____

::::::define::::::
when hapPie tiNks haPpen...
wheN d tinkS tuRn ouT dA waY u waNteD it...
wheN deRe r ppl in uR life tt makE u haPpieS....

well.......2dae is dA dae!!!lolX....

heheX...at leaSt he's baQ....lolX...freNz 4 evA yeas????dun evA do tis agaIns or i reaLLi dunno waT 2 do if U leavE mi aGAins....haiYAs...*sigH~~~*

hehex...2dae is oso RaInie's b`dae!!!!!
she's super cuteS
SuperS frieNDly
Super Pink LovEr
Super gudS voCals
SupeR niCe haIr stYle
Super spEcial caKe 4 heR birthdaE
sUper lucKy
SupeR beautIful TiaRa as preZZie
supeR guDs companY tt takEs care of her super duper-ly gudS
suPer lotS of fanS
super duPer prInceSs-ly lorX
Super specIal b`dae

thereforE................................................................................................................................................

SUPER LOTS OF PPL WENT 2 SUPPORT TIS SUPER DUPER CUTE GAL AT BISHAN!!!!!
lolX...
okies larx...
gtg liaOX....
quite tired liaOx....
tmL f&n lorX...*soBs*
go slp~~~~~~~

WhOa!!!

2006-06-02T01:33:00.000-07:00

lolX....coUrseworK againS n agAins.....

dun mind coz nows MrS seAh taking over d supervision of my coursework lorx...

yayS!!!!she raWks!!!

nows mi goNNa super WorKs hards 4 mY f&N....................
so nows is F&N all Da ways!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YiPeeEeeEeeEEEeeeeeeZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!

lolX.....ohS yarX...hearD tt raIniE cominG 2 buGis s'pore on SaT lehx...
i WANT BACKSTAGE PASS!!!!!
she's lyk super duper cute lorx...wanna go n take photos wif tis cHio Bu!!!!lolX....XinG zU MV d micropHone lyK damN cuTes!!!lolx...hehex...haiYas...juZ lurVes her!!!!

haHax....
gtg liaOz.....teacher naGGinG....ciaOz.....

JAMminG

2006-05-29T07:27:00.000-07:00

heyz...realli long time nv blog leX...bt nvm coz aniways...2dae chi o's juz passed n yeas...tink paper quite okies woRx...
now mi lyk damn high!!!!juz finished watChing sUperbAnd lorx...WhOA!!!!guess wat????Mi Lu Ping raWks!!!!whoA!!!!realli lurve dem n i realli can't believe tt dey rawks tt much larX!!!!!deY sanG bU xiaNg ZhanG dA by S.H.E n realli rawks d whole stage loRx....WoW!!!!they even win SOUL's slick dance moves n their singinG talent....dey also chopped ups 37 marks out of 40!!!!gosH!!!!i was realli groooving in theIr muSic...
lolX...okies enough on superbands....chi o's real funni....lol....d invigilator sae "placed" ur upper 1/2 on the right side of d table den we all mountain tortoise...coz we heard "paste" den i saw every1 paste on table den follow summore....lucky i nv lyk my fren in front go hit d sticker on the table hard den can't take out....lolX...lurve o's chi!!!lolX...sounDs damn FuN!!!!or shuld i sae it IS FUN....lolX...nevA imaginE will lyk tt DeX....o's no nid write name deX worX...so guds!!!heheX...loVes it!!!can't wait 4 more o's....i sound crazi....

hang on........................

mayBes i'm madS....coz kenna scare on the confirmation slip lorX...dey dunno how sae confirmation slip is entry form arhx???

waitS.............

confirmation slip is nt entry form bt dey kinda mixed it upS...
den make mi so scared.......wish dey can sae propeRly worX...haiyAs...tot i can't take paper if dun have tt paper den feel lyk a lump stuck in my throat worX.....go round scaRe eieng....geok cheng....dear n all.......scary.......

paniCs paniCs........................

hengZ i reLax n finiShed paper in the o's 1st chi paper tt i finish.......was lyk sighing wif relief.....
ohs yups....mi learning piano real harDs....learn 1 n a 1/2 song leX....1st song learnt muz thank Sharlene....coz she teach mi d "guang huai fang shi"....so yupS...*sending lurves n kisses*......n d other is "qi li xiang".....dat 1 is learn frm weidi's music....i hear when he play on com....so slowly learn...bt now tt song still in construction....i've onli learn it for lyk 2 daes n counting....
my aim is to learn "feng"....dat song is my fav Jay's song larX....haiSh....whO willing teach i'll gan ji bu jing.....lolX....

aniways....gtg ciaoZ.....jamming at keyboarD.....lolX...>.<...

ProJecTs...prOjecTs n SupeR lot ProjecTs!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-28T18:07:00.000-08:00

okies...i'm baq...lyk long time nv blog later ppl tink my blog is lyk dead...lolX...now in sch's com lab...super stuck wid tons of projects...abit get sick of the projects leX...haiYa................nvm...heng arhx...gt com 2 use or i'll b bored to death...lolX...recently sch is super stressEd...dun understand y teachers sae tt our class lyk gt potential tt batch...abit dumb larx...coz dey sae last yr when we get gd grades den sae we cheat...although sum of us did
but their reason is tt our class can't b scoring higher den the other class...
cRaP!!!!
wateva LorX...
haiya...den now when we sae wan shorter timetable dey come n give us tis cRap...haiya...wateva...haiya...maybe dey saying d truth bt still i find it abit annoyed...haiyA...i always tink we r d spoiled appLe...well...those hu watch i'm nt stupid 2 will noe wat i mean...haiya...can't help it 2 tink tis way though...juz seeing a reflection of myself in i'm nt stupid 2...kinda lyk true......okies larX...

gtg Lex...after O's will def come baq n bloG kaes???lolX...ciaOz............................

SaDs

2006-01-21T05:49:00.000-08:00

haiya...dunno wat's gotten in2 mi nowadaes...kinda lyk can't concentrate on studying...maybe coz i realli miz him bax...i dunno...>.<...chem test...history test...social studies test...so mani more...sumhow lyk begin 2 choke...den lyk wan 2 tok 2 him...he juz lyk all of a sudden disappear frm my world...i dunno isit tt he's juz avoid mi or watsoeva...i juz wish he's sumwhere in tis world alriteX...can't wait 4 o's 2 end so tt i wan my break!!!before i actualli breakdown...aniways no 1 realli every cared if i did breakdown anotZ...well...he used 2 bt now i dunno...well...i juz can't study nowadaes...my mind is so damn full...wells...i dunno...i can lyk juz die jiu hao...

TruTh~

2006-01-19T03:59:00.000-08:00

okies...i'm lyk baq 2 blog...the sch's library is lyk nt gonna open so can't blog larX...can't realli use the com at hm...i mean use w/o sneaky ppl with their bulging nose n eyes 2 c..esp. my sis...she crazily invading my privacy lorz...so no choice i had 2 lyk keep her nose off...hehex...i was lyk kenna shocked tt my younger god bro so guai n listen 2 mi...he realli went 2 buy a prezzie...but it's kinda shocking n a wow factor tt he actualli bought...99 stalks of roses in a bouquet n go ask his gal fren 4 4giveness!!!den if she dun 4give den kneel till she 4give...dat's realli cute n sweet larx..though abit old fashioned...but which gal will eva in their lives reject tis ask 4 4giveness gesture...their heart will melt deX lorx...hahaX...hope he dun make her angry nxt time...or he will ask mi how 2 make her nt angry again...den i dunno how 2 tell him lex worX...so now he owes mi 1 ren qing...heheX...if u hear the story above is lyk kinda wanna guess his age bax...well...he's juz sec 1 tis yr...so is his galfren lorX...hahaX...suprised marhx???he's juz so young...n yet will do such a tink sounds lyk tis kid realli watch too much tv...hahax...thanks god 4 his sincerity tt tis gal lyk 4give him larx...bt i tink d whole incident oso nt his fault den yet he did such a tink was kinda sweet larx...can't imagine tt lorx...heheX...my younger god bro has grown upz...hahahaX...enough abt his roses...heheX...sch realli sianX 2 d fact tt it end at 4 larx...>.<...feel lyk shouting,"where's our break?!?!?"...2 describe sch now kinda lyk the usual "1 big pile hwk..." tink...hope we will nt breakdown till after o's...kinda feel lyk unable 2 breathe on the upcoming exams n class tests...which is totalli nt fair!!!!coz last yr dey oso nv "strangle" them lyk wat dey did 2 us...but at least i gt 1 gd news tt I PASSED MY PURE GEOGRAPHY TEST!!!!YiPPppEEeeEEEeeee!!!13/20...though i gt tis kind of lousy marks bt at least i passed...now is lyk the chance 2 shoot the ball in2 the correct loop leX...hahaX...bt i haven't realli lyk reach my mum's expectations of 9 points...haiya...>.<...if i can do it den asking my dad 4 anitink is gonna b a breeze...1st tink i'll ask 4 is 2 lyk take upz singing lessons...no matter wat it takes n wat's gonna happen...i'm gonna walk to my tis goal...realised how much singing means 2 mi...hahaX...i dun wan d fame n d glory bt i juz wan 2 let my voice takes mi aniwhere it wanna go lorX...i noe now i'm juz nthg bt 1 dae i juz wan 2 b a gd singer...i dun aim so high or watsoeva lyk my own concert or...my 1st album juz lyk my cousin whose album is coming out soon...i tink around nxt month...bt lyk i said i juz wan 2 sing...tis might sounds or seemed to b a childish dream 2 u all out dere...bt it's nt 2 mi...stella juz told mi 2 give up 2dae...bt i wun unless i realli realli wan 2 give up everytink in tt dream...hahahaX...tinking baq i lyk music since young...around kindergarden daes...d sch's graduating concert...i sung d loudest...heheX...den pri sch even when my mum let mi choose d sch i wan go...i chose a gal's catholic sch...1 of the reasons why is coz we get 2 sing hymns everydae...hahaX...n i even harbour dreams on becoming a band member ever since coz i wanna learn anitink tt has 2 do wid music...hahaX...bt tt time in pri sch tt band is a gold indoor band...n if u wan 2 enrol in the band u muz lyk have gd studies as in w/o a fail in ani subject...muz at least have piano grade 3 or smthg dex...so couldn't qualify...coz of the dumb piano rule...i still rmb tt last time those hu join band r all the spoilt kids...ah lians of d sch bt still......in band dey were lyk tamed lions...d conductor is damn patient lorZ...n dey realli play veri gd...tat's y every1 in sch is lyk treat them wid respect...if u were 2 pick out ani fella in sch dey will onli sae gd tinks abt the band n no others rubbish comments...tat's y w/o ani hestitation i joined band in sec sch now...bt the band realli v.v.v.v..v.v.v..v.v.v.v.v.different frm the one in my pri sch...no patient seniors...dun have d same respect given oso...y isn't dere even a gd comment coming out frm the pingyi band???i mean other den those frm the band members...respect is earned nt given lorX...our band is nt even as 1 family as dey promised mi in sec 1...it's onli a name...dere's so mani ppl being left out...ppl all travels in "gangs"...i noe as a little ex-band member w/o ani much rank so i can't sae much abt wat's happening "inside" band...or shuld i sae band's politics...my motive is realli nt 2 make bad comments bt 2 sae d truth...dey dun even cared if i was dead or alive...is tt d family's policy???well...wateva den...after dey see mi well...alive...nt dead yet den dey come n ask mi 2 join baq 2 outdoor...come on lorx...i missed so much lessons...i'm still lyk gonna take my o's tis yr...n i juz recovered...n u asked mi 2 join???hellO???where r ur when i'm alone in d hospital...all i noe is xiuYi jie cum down n zhimin...an NCC deX...n JimmY bro...guitar club...tis is d way dey treat u...so y muz u still b so dumb 2 treat dem nice???who on the rite mind will???i dun understand...which part of "family" dey dun understand???so much 4 all the "we-r-1-family" tink...n 4 cheating our feelings...summore ur spent so much hard work 2 "pull" sec 1s in2 band bt it's realli no use after the sec 1s come in n find the "beautiful" side of band n realised tt dey have been tricked n juz quit...it's realli fine wid mi tt ur dun give a damn when i went to the op bt...when i came baq n i refused 2 go baq 2 band...all the band members used the "traitor" look on mi...wateva...is hu gave upx on hu 1st???i nv gave upz in the sentosa tink last yr...i stood all the way till i realli couldn't...so i stood down to "protect" my saxophone...n yet ppl see it as if i wanted all of these...all of u r realli unsympathetic...i still rmb tt when a junior dunno how 2 play 1 tune or piece...ur scold tt person stupid...retard...hellO???dey join is nt 2 let u scold deX horX...d least u can do is 2 teach the junior more 2 let him or her noes tt u care...juz spend a little more time larx...nt scold dem or "push" dem around 2 d other seniors 2 teach larX...do u noe how heartbreaking tt is marhx if u r d junior???lyk u r so lousy lyk a rubbish n no 1 wans 2 teach u...juz becoz u make 3 or more mistakes on ur learning journey...how do u expect dem 2 have the courage 2 play on???well...enough abt band n music...raking ups the past seems useless though...haiya...hope band is juz different now...gtg leX...study~ciaoX...

A neW beGinnInG

2006-01-01T19:47:00.000-08:00

okies it's another new Yr leX...time to writE d yAyS or bOos of tis n d upcomiNg yr...

YaYs FaCtoR: manageD 2 4get d past...it's a neW yr worx...den lyk gt new aims...probably d morE neW freNx i have lorx...caN waLk w/o pain leX...joY of plaYinG diSc hocKey in arcadE...gonnA b 16 soOn...den can plaY pooL legaLLi...heheX...n yuPx mosT imPorTanTly...my new guardian AnGeL...

BOos FaCtoR: well...sec 4 lex...den o's r lyk damn soon lorX...>.<...d big boo Hoo 4 every1 den...hahax...but NvM we all goNna jia you Dex...i'm sure...n oF coz...mi not evEn gettiN in2 d 2nD round lorX of caMpus superstaR...sec 4s all leAvinG...Escape's aCcident den muM ban mi go...>.<...

okies...i've nv type everYtink out lorx...but i'm a lil too laZy 2 do so...haiYa...nvm...but i'm realli thankfuL 4 everytink jiu dui leX...but a few ppl i wan thank so hope ur R reading tis lorX...scroll down n c........................NotE:nt in orDer...*u tink i so free*

1) my guArdiaN AnGeL...coz he's always juz a phone call away when i nid him...n everytime when i'm sad he will try his best 2 cheer mi upx...thanks worX!!!thanks 4 beinG dere!!!rmB dun everytimE sad sads deX...muZ puT more trust in ppL n dun keep too maNi tinKs in uRself...coZ will burSt deX u noE????slowLy take ur timE n heaL ur wounD in uR heart worx...in time u will...sumtimes u realli niD 2 chIlls...always sCare mi...i tot wat happenEd 2 ya...

2)hew Yenn mummY...hehex...thanks mummY!!!everytime wake mi upz on time 2 go church...sumtimes lyk c u in a daze a lil scary...coz u usualli is SmilEy sMileY deX...so dun giVe sterN looKs or smaLL kids c u wiLL ruN away!!!!!!!heheX...

3)XiuYi jie...heheX...always d big jie jie 2 mi...thaNKs worX...

4)Jie fang Jie oso...

okies larX...i lazY type all...nvm...another time den contInue 2 type loRx...heheX...gtg byes...

GOne Lyk the winD...

2005-08-16T22:17:00.000-07:00

heheX...Mi HApPiE~~~~although got bitten by the caterpillar 2dae and gt rashes...u muz have tink i'm crazi baX...get bittten anD yet so happIe...xiaOz aRhZ???but still...i managed to get rid of my knots tat has been there since when i dunno...thanks to sum one out there...dun wanna sae hu...but yea...thankZ tat's all i wanna sae...to that nice person out there...heheX...happie...HAppIe...mummi...i will nt scratch dez...a promise is a promise...yeas...soRRie mummi...made u worry abt mi so much...>.<...but at least i managed to clear off everytink 2dae...phew!!!nv felt so free!!!YipEeEEEEEeeeeeeee!!!!!!

PICTURE STEALER ON THE LOOSE!!!!!

2005-08-12T22:15:00.000-07:00

PPL FULL TIME ON ALERT!!!THERE'S A PERSON GOING ROUND STEALING PPL PICS ON MSN!!!i am lyk so fuming mad!!!!>.<...feeL lyk killinG ppL!!!!mY penguin pic Took me sumtime to do LORZ....at least i try larZ...okie...haiya...okie...calm down man...ask u...how mani ppl noe the definition of frenz???being friends is tat u are urself...and they respect u 4 it...which ppl are the same???dun have riteZ???so why set ruleZ???tis is nt a be-my-frenz-then-do-wad-i-sae-tink...then stop making mi lyk tis...i'm nt angry neither i'm sad now...i am juz disappointed in u...does it matter tat all ur frenz must abide all ur rulez or they are nt ur frenz???that is call monarchy...nt being frenz...u can rule own life bt not others....disappointed tat a person hu noe how 2 tink saes lyk tat...dun control ur frenz larz...wad are you compare to hitler isn't ur both the same???yesH...i dun wan put ur name there...juz so disappointed in you...can't believe you are doing tis to mi....well...tat's tat...fine!!!!if u tink tat way...i'm nt gonna be ur fren...tat's all 4 ya...it's juz fate that we dun tink the same......

SecoND blOG entRY 4 2dae...

2005-08-11T21:56:00.000-07:00

haiYa...wonder y got second entry ba...well...is 4 tat speciaL one...wanna apologize to him...SORRie...the nick so bad sae u...how you will accept my apology...okie???

ToXiCiTy_100%....

2005-08-11T21:32:00.000-07:00

okie...i noe i shuldn't be blogging here...coz i shuld be starting to "stuDyING"....but can't help it here....>.<...cute???my pic???hahaZ...i took alort of time to do deZ worZ...>.<...*wonder whether belvin will steal*...*he better dON'T!!*...hEhEZ...the pic tell a story worZ...on how tis poor gal here...trace and cut out the cute penguins...heheX... no larZ...c how the penguins look at the heart...tat is call differ perspective...one jux accept it wholeheartedly...the other hate it...one confused abt it...the other curious abt it...wonder mi is wad...heheZ...haiyA...>.<...sianZ larZ...commoN test coming leZ....n............................okie...nvm...>.<...

DisiLLsioNmEnT!!!!!!!!!!

2005-08-09T23:21:00.000-07:00

been seeing tinks nowadaes...okie...some ppl noe wad i mean...i haven't been toking abt them...nt abt is to...though they tried to tok 2 mi...but lucky mi...got mp3...and my darling sunglasses...and handphone...so yea...not worried...well...but is abit lyk on some weird conspirary...spell wrong i tink but hope ur understand wad i mean larz...>.<...i lyk shutting myself frm this world nowadaes...everyone and tink seems lyk dull and all...i find myself in the darker side of life...well...not as if a gal lyk mi will find myself in the brighter side...>.<...try to put on the plaster but oso seemed abit hard...but 4 my frenz...i do that...well...back 2 my bad habit again...i can't stop myself...>.<...one dae i better stop...and stop letting my frenz worry 4 mi...yeas...i never do anitink and get it rite de lorz...>.<...i am such a loser...>.<...

HaAgEn dAz....

2005-08-08T21:51:00.000-07:00

HaaGen Daz rawks...tat's all i can sae...i lurve haagen daz!!!2dae lyk went to eat wid jie...c her face up there so cute!!!heheZ...nt lyk mi so ugly...oh ya....*BELVIN!!!I NOE YOU GOT THE SOFTWARE BUT DUN STEAL MY PICS WORZ!!!!!I AM WARNING YOU!!!!!!!!!!!HEARD TAT????*...heheZ...mi so bad but is the truth...heheZ...gtg le...abit sick 2dae...fever and cold coz i can't slp...>.<...well okie...wad am i still going here???ciaoZ....

StuDiouS mE!!!

2005-07-28T22:33:00.000-07:00

Mi Chem NOTES!!!

Mi UnTiDy TabLe!!!

as u can c these is my evidence of my hardworkingness...yeaH!!!quan zun i am STUDYING my chemisTry worZ...i'm working hard juz 4 him...well...not quan zun...is sumone else...yuki...yeah...abit sianz...not much ppl online...and dom loi lyk twisted his knee...OUCH!!!pain lorz...but he gort tat kind of unfeeling face...tat i pei fu him!!!*salute*...if mi i cry till 1/2 dead...but he's lyk calm lei...>.<...how he do tat???dun tell mi guys all not scared pain???cannot be wad...tat gort my curiousity started...>.<...kinda pity him...and i pray he's gonna be okie soon...and may god bless him!!!>.<...make mi 2dae no mood to take the GeoG test 2dae...but i still manage to write a 1/2 page answer though...kinda feeling the pain he's experiencing...1/2 page nort bad le larz...compared to nthg...i was hoping i could write 1 full page...haiya...faster finished the test then left the room with sad solemn steps...i was practicalli praying 4 him...in the test and when i'm out too......>.<...now the gd tink abt 2dae is that i finalli scored 2 three-points shot at the court...tat's one big record!!!this is lyk the third time i shot smthg amazing...but i tink it's luck...>.<...lyk stella played tat game in eng class tat time...>.<...i told myself not to trust these tinks le...coz they nv realli occurred...i onli giving myself a false happiness...yea...i'm so tired of all these stuffs...but giving up is one difficult tink 2 do...after u lyk tat guy so much then gone...i believe...if u realli lyk him...you shuldn't give up...juz carry on and love unconditionalli...move his heart...tat's my opinion...if u[the special sumone] is reading tis...I AM GONNA MOVE UR HEART!!!so i am not giving up so easilY...do u noe tat everytime u walk pass mi or i walk pass u...my tears juz drop down without reason???tat u juz moveD my heart???i dunno...tis feELinG is UNDESCRIBLEABLE....is quite a mixture of sadness and of happieness...2 mi happieness is seeing u smiling.... ^.^

HAPPIE BIRTHDAE GURL!!!!!!!

2005-07-23T01:01:00.000-07:00

FEELINGS 4 2DAE:
okie...c tis pic up there???is nice ritez???everytime c this pic...i will wonder wad is in all shooting starz tat when u make a wish it will come true???is it all pure coincidence or wad???well...i dunno...but tis pic...2 mi...i c alreadi i feel sad...coz sometimes i realized that there is no such tink at luck and all...to mi the pic shows fallen hope...tat's y i am lyk putting tat pic on to describe my feelings 4 2dae....fallen hope...you might tink y...well...i tot 2dae is gonna be another happie dae...to my horror it's so wrong...wid a bad start in the morning le...took the wrong 60 bus...go school...i took the one to Eunos interchange instead of the one to Bedok de...coz i missed the bus...hoping i could catch up wid the bus...i went to the Mac down there de stop...however...the bus came...and i didn't bother to check and juz went up and when i saw it turning back to my hse stop i knew i took the wrong bus...but no choice...wad to do i am so useless wad...tat was the starting of the bad dae...after tat...during eng class we[stella...lijuan...and mi] chabot to toilet...stella then put make up 4 mi...beauty has 2 pay a price de horz...now i noe...but i still looked so ugly aniwayz...so wasted pooR stella's effort...soRRie!!!then ppl lyk suddenly look and give mi those glances lyk i am a rabbit from the petting zoo or wad...i was lyk..."can ur stop giving mi tat look..."...then after tat is the tears castrophre...[dun feel lyk elaborating on it]...then when i go make IC tat time the queue is lyk damn long larz...>.<...wait 4 quite some time...>.<...after tat...i go 2 the 85 down there 2 work...but lyk realli gort no mood...coz feeling damn sad...>.<...coz got the marrilyn's words echoing["must undertstand ppl dun wan give false hope......."]...zhiming's....["dun stop making frenz...." and "dun pin up all ur hopes on him"]...jiefang jie's...["another sleepless night"..."he cares abt you as a fren"..."dun wan u to wait 4 him...coz 2 young..."..."u are not useless..."]...jimmy kor's["i more stupid than u...i wait 4 5 months..."]...well thankz i noe is ur wanna try 2 lift up my feelings...these words kept run through my head when i am on my job...i was sort of in a daze then give wrong change...scalded my hands...take wrong tink...bring 2 wrong table...haiya...have a hell out of a time...i was lyk in the daze that time...i was taking a bus...then got tis lian gurl sit my vertical opp. then i wasn't staring at her...instead i was tinking n staring at blank space...but she tot i was lyk trying 2 start a "staring incident"...then she warned mi summore...luckily i was numbed wid music and sadness...then got no reaction and she tot i am crazi...after that go home le...my mum broke the news tat my grandmother is trying to commit sucide...tat's lyk totalli enough 4 mi alreadi...I WANT PEACE!!!!!!

MAJOR EVENT 2DAE:
okie...relax...must write abt tat title up there....tat's the birthdae gurl up there i mean in the pic...2207...mine is 1107...chio bu ritez???we will be sisters 4eva eh???ur birthdae prezzie i owe u 1st...okie???so gurl...have u decided on wad to ask ur aunt 2 buy 4 u???mp3 or bag???haiya...tink u will choose mp3 de lorz...you always wanted 1 wad ritez???hahaZ...yeah...and 2dae u look lyk snow white...if not ur sandals betray u wid the orange lining...>.<...but too bad singapore got no snow...so you will melt...okie...i can here tat you are shouting "lamE!!!" to the screen...but you are oso that "CRaBBY" wad...cancerianz rawKz...SHIKES!!!look at the time it's lyk 1 am le...okie...gtg...aniways wish YOU a HapPiE bIrThdAE and HaPpIe aLwaYZ!!!!!

onE daE afTer...Yi tiAn Yi HoU...

2005-07-12T23:23:00.000-07:00

okie...happiE 15 le...time juz pass so damn FasT...i can'T believE i am alReadi 15!!!haiYa...lao le jiu shi lao le...>.<...lyk my life flashing so fast...kai kuai che...bullet train...okie...juz 2 make it clear...2dae i nv chabot school horz...i sick lorz...is call FATIGUE...due to lack of slp...haiYa...oh ya...these few daes gort alot of ppl sick lorz...Ur All down there muz watch out horz...if sick theN at homE dAmn boreD de...go scHool stiLL bettER... i souNd so guai horz...is fake 1...>.<...haiya...my b.dae yesterdae is fun lorz...but feel kinda sick eating too much cake...cake frm mummy and xiuyi jie...and one frm my home...so i made 2 wishes lorz...tat wish is cannot tell...coz then wun come true le...but of all the cake i still lyk mummy's oreo cake...ppl eat candlelight dinner...my is candlelight cake...innovative...with the bedok reservoir gang...reminds mi of jie fang jie and marrilyn wid their...G_A_ N_G tink...oh horz...juz bought a few TSUBASA comics...yeah man!!!lee rawkz lorz...i mean the one in the comics...he so cute...and all...i c the anime i cry...coz so touching...yea...he dun care abt his own life to save her[lead gurl]'s life...tis kind of guy where 2 get???erm...god noes larz...>.<...lyk wad brenda jie sae...leave it to fate ba...but seems a long wait though...let's hope tat it's worth it then....

1 daE.......................

2005-07-10T23:55:00.000-07:00

okie...i juz gort back frm work...still abit energetic...dunno y oso...>.<...maybe is coz i tink it is fun baX...okie...i now lyk recalling wad was i doing last yr tis dae...lyk was on the phone wid...him and phyllis mei...yeah...kinda still happily toking and all...so diff frm tis yr...with the cold shoulder...black face and all...wish i could go back to last yr...when u laugh and tease mi...and show how smart and lame you are to make mi carry a smile everywhere i go...all these sweet and yet abit bitter memories i still carry everywhere i go...not as if everyone dun noe...my memory SUXS...i can't even remember whether i did my hwk and i do it again...>.<...gong riteX???then i summore go tell teacher say nv do then genna again..>.<...how stupid can i get???*echO:VERI STUPID!!!!!*...okie...he juz Wish mi HAPPIE bIRTHdae...i now having fever...and my heart beat damn fAST...so now feel abit cold...go take temperature...is lyk 37.7 degrees...walao...is it the weather or mi...okie...i juz asked my mum and gort a damn big scolding...sae is mi going crazi...okie...nvm...

enDinG oR BeGinNinG?

2005-07-07T23:02:00.000-07:00

walking suddenly seems to be my habit lately...however every step i take...the sharp pain is still there...lyk as though telling mi to stop torturing myself...but my mind is still going strong...strong and determined to walk this route no matter what comes by...is that courage???i dunno...perhaps my stubborness baX...coz i noe i would nv have the courage to sae tat i am courageous or anitink lyk tat...>.<...is walking a form of escaping reality???to mi walking is realli nthg...i can say that i have "CONQUERED" the irritating pain as i set my feet on the ground to every step i take...what pains mi more is something else...sometink more...a stone cold pain constantly in my heart...is IGNORING the best way to 4get sum1???ask mi arhX...>.<...bet u oso dun wanna noe oso...that kinD of pain is INDESCRIBABLE!!!worst than the pain in my leg...but is for ur good and my good...I WILL DO ANITINK!!!and i meaN it...aLL u have to Do iS ask....i WILL be thEre...my pooR heaRt's painFul beats 4 u......and NO ONE ELSE CAN REPLACE YOU in mY life...

MiStaKeZ......

2005-06-13T20:37:00.000-07:00

heLLo ppL...geT iT straiGHt...i HAVE NEVER beeN 2 thE scHooL'S mEEt the pArenT seSSion...yuPx...i was StiLL busY cOpyinG mY maThs BooKs i Owe maLeK...don'T beLieve AsK BrenDa jie...she HeLpEd me wiTh iT...anD aLL mY oTher frEnz in 302...sO STOP ruMouRinG stUfFs!!!i DuN caRe waD oTherZ tiNk oF mi...aS lonG aS i NoE tat i NEVER DiD ANITHINK WRONG!!!i am not that kind of ppL who can hold on a guilty feeling for tat long...don't believe ask phyllis mei...so mani tinks i have done can prove it...juz go ask her 2 name ani one of tinks i've done...and went to admit even if no one found out...i would rather live haPPie and carefree...not live in guilt of wad you have done...and everydae worry here worry there that ppl will EXPOSE wad you have done...

SIAnZ~~~~~~

2005-06-08T11:27:00.000-07:00

now i at the school's com lab...slacking when i'm supposed to slogged out my heart and life on this weird topic of vitamins...hate it lorz...vitamin A...B1..B2...B3...B6...B9...B12...C...D...E...K...will die...lucky they don't have frm A-Z...or my research is lyk super thick...beside mi nicola was lyk..."tis fuckin com is fuckin slow and its fuckin wasting my fuckin time =p..."...erm..for once in my life...i agree...coz wad she said was true...everyone here listening to the mp3's music...techno...frm nic's mp3...kinda cool larz...no more sianx le...but somehow...we managed to smuggle some food up just now...was tis some kind of torture for us???at least it is better than staying at home...I HATE VITAMINS!!!!can't find ani research on it...haiya...>.<...okie...is lyk 11 plus le...mdm rushana supposed to let us go le...but...haiya...some tinks are not fair de marhx...i wish moses would come here and shout..."let my people go!!!!" at the teachers face...perhaps it might worked...and get a 1 and only comandment!!!that is to let us enjoy life to the fullest!!!hehex...sounds weird...but tat would nv happen...it's onli daydreamin......wish i could GEt OUt oF heRe sooN!!!yeaH!!!!somEonE pLeaSe bReAk In ScHooL oR WadEva!!!!hehEx...sound wicKed..>.<...lyk i give a damn...oH ya...2dae is bth JUnE!!!my daDDy's biRthDaY!!!2dae MusT bUy cAkE!!!afTEr His BiRthDay is My BirThDay!!!i WanT To MAkE A birThDay WisH...weLL...tat Is To HAVE WORLD PEAACE!!!and all my god families ppl to SMILE alwAYS And STaY HaPPiE ALWAyZ...

YOU SUXS!!!

2005-06-02T21:47:00.000-07:00

after all these times that i trusted you and told you everything and even treated you as my bestest best fren...do you ever knoe that you are one of the most impt person tat ever help mi and changed my life???...i am so thankful of that...so i treated you well...and yet you treat mi lyk tis...but now...I AM SOOOOOOoooOOOOOoooOOOooo DISAPPOINTED IN YOU!!!!look at urself in the mirror...how different from him now???so much for everythink...thankx a whole lot...note to all 403 readers....tis one is not abt fazli bro or chenghan bro......so don't anyhow go rumour...

DreAmz....theY ar3 r3cuRrInG...iS taT i SigN???

2005-05-25T21:10:00.000-07:00

did some research on recurring dreams...here they are...

Most dreams contain messages that serve to teach us something about ourselves. Unfortunately many a times we forget what we dream about as we go about our daily routine. With recurring dreams, the message may be so important and/or powerful that it just will not go away. The frequent repetition of such dreams forces you to pay attention and confront the dream. The dream is trying desperately to tell you something. Such dreams are often nightmarish or frightening in their content, which also helps you to take notice and pay attention to them.
Recurring dreams are quite common and are often triggered by a certain life situation or a problem that keeps coming back again and again. These dreams may recur daily, once a week, or once a month, but whatever the frequency, there is little variation in the dream content itself. It usually points to a personal weakness, fear, or your inability to cope with something in your life - past or present.
The repetitive patterns in your dream can reveal some of the most valuable information on yourself. It may point to a conflict, situation or matter in your waking life that remains unresolved or unsettled. Or some urgent underlying message in your unconscious is demanding to be understood.
Following are some tips in overcoming your recurring dreams.
1. In understanding your recurring dream, you must be willing to accept some sort of change or undergo a transformation.
2. You must be willing to look within yourself and confront whatever you may find no matter how difficult it my be.
3. You must be able to look at the dream from an objective point of view. Try to get pass the emotional and reactive elements of the dream and get down to the symbolic images. Many times dreams are masked by elements that are disturbing preventing you to delve any deeper. This is a defense mechanism that your unconscious may be putting up.
4. Be patient. Do not get discourage if these dreams still recur even after you thought you have come to understand them.
5. Learn to accept yourself truly and fully.
Often times, once you discover what your recurring dream is trying to tell you, these dreams will change or altogether disappear.

Let's Hope tat they disappear 2nite...haiya...coz they are realli a nitemare le...okie...tis webbie got on nitemares...

We all have had nightmares at various parts in our lives. They are quite normal. But what is exactly a nightmare and why do we have them?
Nightmares are a subcategory of dreams. The distinction of a nightmare is its frightening and/or emotional content. You tend to wake up in fear in the midst of a nightmare. Because of its frightening nature, you tend to remember your nightmares and the vivid details. They have a bigger impact upon your waking mind and its images stay with you throughout the day.
One reason for nightmares may be a way of our unconscious to get our attention about a situation or problem that you have been avoiding. It is time to take notice and confront a problem or situation. Nightmares serve an important purpose in showing you what is troubling you from within you deeper levels. Discussing, analyzing, and understanding your nightmares can lead to a solution for some problem, internal conflict or personal difficulty.
Causes Of Nightmares
Childhood and Family - Present nightmares can be rooted in past neglect and trauma from childhood. From lack of love, neglect, alcoholism, to severe abuse, family members can be the most destructive influence on a person's life. Nightmares may be a sign of such inner turmoil.
Life - The way your life is going and the larger society as a whole can contribute to nightmares. Your perception of the world, heath, natural disasters, criticism about politics, crime in the streets and your inability to control such events may sometimes lead to nightmares.
Relationships - Your intimate relationships and your daily interactions with people can also be a source of your nightmares. You may have paranoia about how your think others perceive you. You fear that they do not understand and see who you really are. Isolation and unhappiness may appear in nightmares as abandonment and loneliness.
Stress - The way you handle and deal with stress can trigger nightmares. Nightmares are a normal response to unacceptable levels of fear and stress. People diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder frequently have nightmares about their traumatic event, like war, rape, death of a loved one, car accident, plane crash, terrorism, etc.
Work - Since most of us spend the majority of our day at work, it is no surprise that work-related issues are a common source for your nightmares. Stress, job security (or there lack of), co-workers, unresolved work problems, or general dissatisfaction with what you do can manifest into a nightmare. The nightmare may reflect feelings of frustration and an inability to control your work-related issues. People in high-stress level or high-risk jobs often report of having nightmares. Nightmares of this nature may appear as you being attacked, chased, or being out of control.
In general, stress, trauma, fears, insecurities, feelings of inadequacy, health problems, marital issues, etc may all be reasons for having nightmares.
Having nightmares are normal, but a high frequency of nightmares can be a sign of being overwhelmed and excessive stress which should be dealt with. Nightmares can be an important resource for self-knowledge and emotional discovery. They convey an important message and help clear up the conflict in your life. it is important to distance yourself and work pass the emotional content (fear, grief, anger, etc.) of your nightmare and analyze it from an objective perspective. The disturbing emotions may be a way for your unconscious to prevent you from digging deep into the meaning of your nightmares. But it pays to try and make sense of those darker dreams.

haiya...you ppl pls cross road properly worx...haiya..

.:17 daYz:.

2005-05-12T15:57:00.000-07:00

note to someone out there..........................................................it like in another 17 days would be 1 year i noe u liaox...it's like you had really changed so much since the first time i noe you...maybe is the change in me not you...yupx...i oso dunno y...i realli prefered the old you...if i am realli granted 1 wish...tat is tat you will be back to ur normal...kind...sweet and caring self...perhaps i'm the one who changed you...i'm realli sorry if i realli did...okie...enough of tis...i'm like...soOOooOOooOOoo.....stressed out lorx...haiya...sianx...coz of all tis exams...it's like getting into my brain...okie...i made a decision to drop pure geog and take pure lit...yupx...haiya...okie...gtg liaox...dun blog so much...coz now at brenda's hse...then wan go tok 2 them...okie...gtg le....

PheW!!!

2005-04-13T17:07:00.000-07:00

holidays!!!sianx...tis holidays suppose 2 be happie de...but lyk no holidays summore tat day at band zac sae tis is the last bbq 4 the sec 4s makes me feel kinda sad too....as wad ever1 says tat when it is time 2 let go you should realli do it...well...after so long....i realli realised the importance of the ability 2 let go...wad is not yours will never be yours...wad's the point of pondering over sum timk tat will nv be urs???dunoe why such tinks just get into my mind lately...perhaps...i realli growing up le worx...lolx...

mY lasT 3 WorDs...

2005-03-28T06:37:00.000-08:00

yoz...finalli back le...very long nv write le...abit dui bu qi xiuyi jie who helped mi in my blog...lolx...dun worry...i will try my best dun dui bu qi her...lolx...hehex...gee...i lyk finalli finish my storybk..sort of borrowed it from the library or smthg...4got the tittle...but the ending so romantic...xian mu the 2 couples there...haiya...perhaps...mine will nv be...or maybe it's just delayed...hehex...yeah phyllis!!!stingy ppl got difficulty giving ppl chances...lolx...not trying 2 say ani1...but just saying 2 my dear something else...finalli understand how irritating can a guy be...phew!!!luckily i escape!!!1 day will die le...and my dear lyk going through tat everyday...pei fu her...*salute..*hehex...if mi i zao jiu die le...yeah...daddy i must train my tolorance levels...you are ritex...hehex...4 once???hehex...dun quite understand...our school motto is perservance yeilds success...but ppl say wad do not belongs 2 ya...will never be yours...i was wondering...how you noe wad's yours???how you noe GOD is gonna give ya???is tat an excuse for failure and a way to give up???

UNFAIR!!!

2005-02-17T20:51:00.000-08:00

i am so sad lorx...my dad so mean...i told him when i wan go poly now coz i dun wan go JC he down there scold mi...coz he tink poly is useless ppl go de...y can't they give a damn abt how i feel???y must they alwayz make plans 4 mi...I AM NO LONGER A SMALL KID LE!!!!!come on lorx...wats wrong wif poly???is MY decision aniwayz...I DUN WAN LIVE IN YOU ALL HANDZ...yes you are my parents so wad???you dunoe anitink abt my feelings...do you???if you all noe how i feel pls dun torture mi liaox...kaes???be4 i realli leave home for good...............

ShoPPinG RaWkZ!!!wat???RIBENA ADDICTION???er...

2005-02-12T14:46:00.000-08:00

yesterdae went shopping 4 prezzies...okie ur all dun sae i unfair onli give sum1 prezzie...actualii i got buy 4 my family tree people de lorx...lolx...reminds mi tat tml daddy coming back liaox...lolx...YAYA~~~finalli he going 2 cum back le...went 2 buy lots of stuffs nehx...walk here walk there...make a mistake not listening 2 Levin...should not wear those shoes got cross here cross there 4 shopping especially for orchard summore...haiya...now my leg got 1 line 1 line...pain nehz...but not as pain as my hand last time...okie...i dun tink i shuld reveal ani1's prezzie here...lolx...coz i giving every1 practicalli every1 da same...except...erm...erm...dun wan sae still better...haiya...lolx...shopping can stop all d hunger...lolx...mi n my ribena...RIBENA RAWKX...fazli sae he oso dunoe how long he never drink liaox...lolx...i tink dun count the day be4 yesterdae...i onli last drank ribena at pri sch...lolx...tat is lyk so long lorx...i tink i genna ribena addiction...lolx...can't stop drinking ribena n wanting 2 drink ribena de...wonder wat they put in ribena...besides d blackcurrent n all da vitamin C...beats mi...lolx...sounding abit childish larx...but can't be helped...oh ya...i finishing my first book liaox...i mean writing...my book is my life, my story...wat is yours???well...maybe find jie fang jie 2 read...lolx...she sae she wan read de lorx...not lyk xiuyi jie sae tat no 1 will read...humph...>.<...i sound lyk i am a writer publishing my book...lolx...actuallli is not...i dun have d fu qi...lolx...was chatting 2 him jus now...he sounded abit sad...dunoe y...unlike his usual self...he last time reply very fast de but now.........haiya...he told mi he was angry...wif sum1...then left le...leaving at such an abrupt end...make mi abit confused n sad...well...who disturb him now???haiya...i just dun understand...why...n what...what is the true meaning of lurve???every1 sae i lurve tis guy i lurve tat guy...but i tink they as i expected tat they too oso do not noe d real meaning ba...not as if i noe...but i wan 2 noe wat it means...maybe is different people got different meaning ba...but wat right they got 2 sae tat they are correct???i just don't understand...maybe i was never meant 2 find da real meaning ba...maybe is fate...i shall drift as fate goes...lyk d show a moment 2 remember.....................

WaT haPPenEd 2 GUYZ dOmiNiANT ruLe???

2005-02-11T20:18:00.000-08:00

haiya...so long nv blog liaox...coz chinese new year marhx...now Valentines Day coming liaox...haiya...i sure no present de...haiya...aniwayz 2 mi is nv mind de...lolx...wonder whether my husband and my mistress got ani present anot???lolx..sure got de lorx...lolx...i here v.v.v.sianx...suddenly lyk very very sianx...coz daddy not here...haiya...i miss him lehx...haiya...no one really understand mi unlyk him...why he wan skip school 2day???haiya...is tis separation anxiety???lolx...maybe is coz i can lyk trust him ba...then tell him stuffs...now lyk no people can make fun of mi liaox...and no 1 willing 2 hear mi crap...coz he is gone...i say until he die liaox...lolx...suddenly lyk winter here liaox...can't wait 4 him 2 cum back...haiz...i go only a few dayz i lyk tat liaox...next time he go 2 States i tink i can die liaox...now lyk dun feel lyk toking nehz...haiya...sianx...no 1 going 2 tell mi tat i tok crap...no 1 tell mi he wan go play lan...no 1 tell mi tat he wan go play computer games...then no 1 will ask play wat...haiya...then mummy oso...lyk go 2 malaysia dun wan cum back...wat happened 2 my family eh???lyk broken...*choi**choi*...*touch wuld*...lolx...Fran lah...lyk influence everybody...now i am abit lyk her tok no sense...lolx...cannot spoil my IQ n EQ arhx...must ask her return mi...haiya...now lyk dun wan go overseas coz got Bird Flu arhx...still got tsunami...abit make mi heart itchy...pity those who die...coz they got no means of defense...so lucky 2 be in Singapore...unlike them...haiz...*1 minute of silence*...i tink pure geog is killing mi wif all the plate tectonic theory...earthquake...folding...frost shattering...grandular disintergration...exfloliation...crystallisation...hydrolysis...carbonation...make mi began 2 be more afraid of tis world...lyk soooooo dangerous...then bio oso...lock and key hypothesis...biological catalysts...enzymes...lipase...proteases...amylase...coenzymes...denatured...substrate...will die lorx...not 2 sae F&N oso...monosaccharides...polysaccharides...disaccharides...amino acids...monounsaturated...tenderizers...myosin...actin...globulin...elastin...collagen...riboflavin...thiamin...nicotinic acid...wah...so difficult...u nv go school 2 days...will die lorx...but sumhow i lyk it...abit shiok...coz learn more then can outwit and win my younger sister...dunoe y my mum kept on say she innocent...my foot she innocent lorx...she so cunning one...sometimes oso bully mi and make mi cry then i go complain 2 my mum...she sae i childish...abit then cry...come on lorx...you my mum and you side her...wat d...lucky my dad side mi...she scold my sis...lolx...huo gai...michael daddy alwayz ask mi why i soooo scared of my younger sis...n let her boss mi around after all i am d older than her...but is coz she got my mum at her side...then my mum controls all my stuffs...tats why...haiya...my mum controls my dad at home...haiya...wonder next time when i get married is my husband control mi or i go and control my husband...beats mi...lolx...21st century liaox...lyk most guyz are contolled by galz...i c so much of this kind of scene in my family...on both my mother and father side of the family...wat happened 2 da guyz dominant rule???...haiz...my grandfather oso lyk tat...tink tat galz no use no good...come on lorx now is 21st century then everyone is equal de...he tink tat galz will chi kui...but dun u tink lyk we galz can give birth not lyk guyx...we are in charge of a life in us???well they dun tink lyk tat...tat day eat reunion dinner tat time must let da guyx take food first make mi feel damn insulted...>.<...but coz chinese new year so must ren n tolerate...i faster eat finsh then left the table liaox...not ever in from my generation galz r going 2 be called useless animore...humph...>.<...now is galz power!!!n we are all after all EQUAL!!!...guyz=galz...tats better...lolx...i tink tats all i wanna say...lolx...michael daddy you shuld be proud of your daughter's theory...lolx...

Chinese New Year cum liaox....

2005-02-05T18:28:00.000-08:00

yayaya...chinese new year cum liaox...d money i get frm red packet is going 2 go into my zen micro 4 sure...i wan mp3 zen micro!!!i make sure tis mth can take...i now everydae go sa jiao wif my daddy[real] ask him buy 4 mi...bt he lyk abit pissed off le...lolx...oops...now at hm they sae i gd gal lehz...so ask them buy 4 mi lorx...aniwayz...it is soooo hard 2 be a gd gal at hm...every1 noes tat i at hm canot do tis cannot do tat liaox...being a gd gal at hm lyk more canot do items...onli study...my parents sae if they can get through with my era why can't i???well 4 their information...their era is still black n white television nehz...wat did they have besides tat???nthg nehz...how 2 compare???our era is lyk mp3s...flat screen plasma tv...we have our own share of fun marhx...n they cannot lyk tat stop mi frm playing n having fun coz last time they dun have marhx...abit nt fair nehz...oh ya...msn gt tis realli cool tink now...can nudge ppl her n there...CCCOOOOOOLLLLLL!!!!!lolx...poor xiuyi jie n jie fang[fran]jie genna from mi...lolx...ouch!!!ouch!!!lolx...they so poor tink...they confirm wan go 2 msn there complain tat stupid button...lolx...gtg le...

SicK~

2005-02-01T00:58:00.000-08:00

it totalli suxs being sick!!!i dun wanna stay at hm!!!i wan 2 go 2 sch...staying at hm gt no life...y tat Fran[Jie Fang] pass mi tat flu???haiya...sianx...sianx at hm...dunoe y jus can't wait 2 gt better 2 go 2 sch...missed sch alot...bt lyk d last time i went 2 sch is lyk yesterdae...my frenz so different lehz...they all wanna charbot sch de...aiyo...2dae stay at hm...tml oso...so sianx...staying at hm sucks out all my life lorx...haiya...oh ya...jus check temperature is lyk abt 36.5 degrees liaox...make sure tml can go sch le...or else can die...haiya...i counted liaox...if tml oso canot go sch...tat means i skipped abt.............3 period of Social Studies...1 period of History...2 periods of CME...2 periods of Food n Nutrition...2 periods of Mathematics..2 periods of Assembly...4 periods of English...2 periods of Mother Tongue...2 periods of Physical Education...2 periods of Geog...n most importantly...2 peroids of CHEMISTRY!!!!tats alot lorx...i dun wan missed Chemistry!!!my favourite sub nehz...nt fair...is so nt fair...the doctor sae if nv gt well by Thursday then must go take blood test 4 Dengue...coz many ppl around my area gt dengue...tat means Xiu Yi jie, Hew Yenn mummy and Chelsea must be careful le worx...dun lyk mi lyk tat kkz???lolx...they sae choi...lolx...aniwayz...i gt a special msg 4 a special sum1...erm......*clear throat*...*cough*...can we 4get???the things we dun wanna remember???So those bad memories of the things happen long ago, can it all be 4gotten???if only we could 4get the past and start all over afresh???is just a chance too much 2 ask 4???i will be always waiting 4 ur answer...

OrCh@rd...El3Ctr@...

2005-01-21T01:58:00.000-08:00

haiz...finalli...can blog...lolx...yesterdae go out v.shiok...so long nv go out lyk tat le...since...er...erm...lyk christmas???lolx...bt is quite fun...then lyk c every1's personality in a new picture...or u can sae new frame...last time i c Chai Jing i tot she v.v.v.fierce de...lolx...bt now she is lyk quite okie...then i see Aloysius and Cheng Han kor as easy-going n lyk 2 sae jokes 1...bt i didn't noe tat they so knowledgeable de...until 2dae...lyk 2dae noe so much info...i lyk every1 lyk tat in harmony...bt too bad jie fang jie,hew yenn mummy n shan joo nv cum...or else more fun...lolx...haiya...tis coming week sure v.stressed de...coz of all d test coming up...i quite scared larx...bt i will try my best de...i luv chemistry...chemistry roxs lorx!!!dunoe y lyk chem sooooooo much bt i tink must b coz of my curiousity...my bio is quite okie onli...bt i failed my chem test...even though it is fail...i will nt give up de...coz i dun wan make same mistake le...lyk my maths lyk tat...my maths has been poor becoz of 1 reason...when i pri sch tat time my maths is always Band 1 de bt coz of 1 mistake in pri 4...i nv c d two pages of my maths paper stick 2gether then nv do...actualli if i do i can gt 89 de bt......coz of my carelessness i gt 69...at then 69 is consider as fail lyk tat ...then my parrents were called 2 sch...coz teacher tot y i nv do...then i gt scolded by my parents...then frm then on i began 2 hate maths slightly...bt my parrents tot i nv do coz i dunoe how 2 do...so they provided mi wif a tutor...the tutor is d worst trauma of my life coz whenever i gt questions dunoe how 2 do i ask her she call mi stupid n even retard...then i gt my questions wrong coz i dunoe how 2 do then i was asked 2 do it again n again until i gt it correct...i nv even gt a chance 2 explain at all...neither she did explain 2 mi...my maths bk is frm 1 cm width grew 2 7 to 8 cm thick...bt it wasn't d worst yet...my results came then i gt worst...n worst...she told my parrents coz i lazy n dun wan try...n oso sae i nv do ani practise on maths...my dad believed her n i gt caned...she sae i purposely dun wan do her homework coz wanna rebel...bt is tat i gt soooo many work...sch 1 then she piled up work until lyk crazy...then every week nv do finish she doubled d work...then finalli i gt alot i nv do she showed my parents n i gt caned practicalli every wk...end of 1 week i not onli gt a few caned marks bt oso bruises n red knuckles...coz she sae i dunoe how 2 do is faked de...so she pinched mi,use ruler hit my hand,pull my hair n oso piled my hwk more...i wasn't d onli 1 who gt it my neighbour who gt d same tutor gt it too...i hated every maths teacher i gt...my maths result kept dropping lyk sum1 falling of a cliff...as a kid...wat can i do???complain???to hu???i dun even have a single fren tat time...y can't my parrents understand mi or even hear wat i sae???y can't i be lyk every normal kid???tats y HATED maths n even my parrents 2 d core...is quite alot 4 mi 2 get C in my PSLE 4 maths...slowly i began 2 drift apart frm every1 in my family...no 1 can c bt in my heart...it was nv d same...i even tink tat my parrents dun luv mi...dun care abt how i feel...wat they onli cared is my results...coz they want d name...they want ppl 2 sae,"WOW!ur daughter gt Band 1 4 maths???tats gd...nt lyk my daughter..."...n nv 4gt wat happened...up till now i hate going hm n i hate my parrents alot...i even tot of moving out of my own hse as soon as possible if i get d chance 2...bt sumhow...i managed 2 change tis yr...i sumhow pt all these unwanted past behind...i improved in my maths bt i nv will 4give wat my parents did 2 mi...as d scar 4eva will be there...well...up till now gt alot of ppl tell mi tat my parents luv mi...i will just sae no in my heart...becoz i canot 4get wat happened...d feeling 4 every beginning of the tuition n every lesson ends...i will be afraid...fear of wat tat my parrents tot is gd 4 mi...bt now i gt a gd tutor who understands mi n taught mi maths easily...i am amazed tat 4 mr malek's short maths test i gt full marks...i nv c that grade in my life...my dream grade...d one i nv saw since kindergarden...lolx...bt aniway enough abt my stuffs le...be4 i gt jealous of other ppl's wonderful childhood which i nv realli had...lolx...bt 2 mi childhood doesn't realli matter now...coz i gt a family of my own...my god-familiez members who were there 4 mi when i nid help...so i dun mind abt my real family at hm...as long as my god family is wif mi...tats all tat matters...my kind of joy...my kind of happiness...lolx...maybe should list down my family members...okie...here they are...start fom daddy is Michael[Scientist]...then erm...mummy is Hew Yenn[Traffic Police]...[they both claimed tat i have been adopted at d rubbish dump...rotfl...i dun believe...>.<...]...jies are...XiuYi[1st][Accountant]...Nancy[4th][Mathematician]...Jie Fang[5th-YOUNGEST OLDEST SIS!][Fashion Designer]...Bros...Cheng Han[2nd][Pilot]...Jimmy[3rd][gd 4 nthg???lolx...jkjk...maybe Teacher ba]...now is meis...Phyllis[6th][Mathematician ba...][she oso my misstress]...Lidya[8th][Comedian???lolx...i dunoe wat she wanna b when she grow up...]...lolx...i lyk missed out no. 7 ritex???no. 7 is mi!!!lolx...[Lawyer]...lolx...i dun mind be author oso...lolx...i can write stories de...lolx...my forte...lolx...ask ppl who read my compo...lolx...aniwayz going out 2nite is great!!!wish can lyk tat 4 d rest of my life...lolx...esp. d show ELECTRA...nt bad...bt daddy took all d tixs then go hm so early...abit anti-social arhx...so make sure he gt keep d tixs...or else i kill him liaox...lolx...wat an unfilal daughter...kill dad summore...lolx...mummy lyk pig...give birth 2 8 children...lolx...jkjk...she is bee nt pig...lolx...aniwayz...gtg le...v.v.v.v.v.v.v.late liaox...onli i alone...scared...lolx...gdnitez...

dOn't KnOw What To PuT

2005-01-20T03:35:00.000-08:00

so long nv blog liao...haiya coz tooo buzy nv play here play there liaox...suddenly wanna study study study...abit nerd ritex???no choice coz i dun wan ppl look down on mi...all these yrs i go in 1st class de...bt becozs of 1 stupid mistake i made...then go 2 such a lousy class even d person she lyk oso look down on her...c her then run away...lyk mouse lyk tat...i admit...i have been scared all these while...scared n nt willing 2 face reality...n has been so disappointed wif myself...for going into such a lousy class...let ppl look down...n wats more...i noe tt many ppl have been toking behind my back...bt hu cares???can't sum 1 lyk another person without other ppl busybodying???i dun give a damn abt wat they sae coz i noe there has been a few ppl giving mi sum support all these while...i am realli touched coz these ppl are nt ppl whom i noe v.v.v.v.long ago bt ppl i noe 4 onli short mths...thankie...i will nv 4get de...bt aniwayz...as long as i smile n tok cheerfully without any worries n all...is a v.v.v.gd way to repay them...finalli i understood smthg le...after all these yrs...u might tink ppl who r close 2 u n can tell them everytink...u r making a huge mistake liaox...dun trust ani1...bt i dun believe that i can't trust ani1 in tis world...well...i trust ppl in my god family de...esp. my bros n sis...wat best frenz r 4 man???4 u 2 share everytink 2...tats y bestfren 4 ur info...thankie Phyllis 4 always being there 4 mi...n nv fail 2 give up 4 mi...oh ya...still gt xiuyi jie...she always there 2 give mi a lesson or 2 nt 2 tok crap[crab]...n make sure i wake up 2 reality...lolx...still gt my daddy...i must thank him d most eh...he everytime oso can make mi laugh...no matter i cry or wat...make mi lyk idiot cry n laugh...although he oso sum1 tok alot of crap...lolx...thank ya...lolx...u r sooooo ritex daddy...every since he stepped into my life...no 1 ever see my genuine smile n laughter liaox...n dun worry U R NT FAT LAH!!!lolx...stop being sooooo health consicious can???canot stand u smtimes tok crap-reasoning wif mi sumore...lolx...oh ya i almost 4gt another impt person leh...that is my mummy[hew yenn]...thankzzzz soooooo much 4 all d lecture leh...although u c lyk i nv hear u tok...bt i did lorx...haiya...hope every1 has d cheryl spirit...d be cheerful alwayz 1...lolx...dun follow mi tok crap arhx...or else break d copyright law liaox...lolx...haiz...actualli 2dae nt realli wif seniors sae i lousy n lyk bee kuan...bt c ur score n mine...can ur understand mi anot???2dae's my 1st time c my score lehz...yes she oso...bt any idiot oso can c ur score easier...then ur lyk tat scold mi...v.v.v.v.disappointing u noe???sumore urs is alto sax...mine is tenor...tats means is harder...can ur 4 once stop comparing anot???how do u feel if u r in my shoes???wats more did i have a choice 2 choose tenor anot???did i ever stop n give up on tenor???i can tell u the answer is...NO!!!so stop discouraging mi...kkz???i hope ur understand how i feel...n i am just onli being honest by typing it here hope ur will understand...kkz???tis didn't meant 2 insult ani1...okie???gtg liao now is so late le...ZZZZzzzzzzZZzzzz.........sweet dreamz every1!!!!

cOunTdoWn 2005

2004-12-31T07:24:00.000-08:00

Yoz..2dae gt countdown party..so no choice ask jie 2 put tis in 4 mi..lolx must put in my resolution 4 nxt yr..aniwayz I am pretty sure every1 sure gt at least 1 resolution tis yr ritex???well..mine is to have more control of my feeling..coz lyk tat better..no nid 2 care abt wat others sae abt mi de....esp. Michael bro n Jimmy always said I short de...lolx....at least short gd wat....no nid 2 bend down at certain places coz ceiling is tooo low....lolx....of coxs dun wan everytime senior scold then cry...generally galz must be strong so no nid guyz treat us bad lorx...then we SIS....SUFFER IN SILENCE....wake up lorx...tis is d 21st century liao....galz r now d ones who make d 1st moves le....guyz dunoe go where le....sooooo now is gal power le....n if we gt d courage 2 make d 1st move so we shuldn’t becoz of tat let guyz treat us bad....aniwayz wat realli belongs 2 u will always be urs n no 1 will get it frm u de....lolx...well...enough abt guyz...d 2nd resolution is follow more lyk HY...is in law.....n study more of d traffic..so nxt time wun late le.....wif her around makes mi tink tat miracles oso can happen de...coz we often late de.......bt sumhow she cut d traffics here n there then we become early or on time le..makes mi sumhow filled wif awe n respect man!lolx...3rd resolution is to add more speed n power in toking......become debate champion arhx....dun lose 2 Michael bro animore.......always sae mi canot sae him much coz I used 2 much then numb le...sumhow I tink tat is important 4 mi...dunoe y...maybe sum ppl tok gt bone wat...lolx....4th is to perform better in exams make sure win the top fella in my corhort....seems abit unbelievable...okie...I was jking.....bt I will do it wif my best..dun wan ppl 2 look down on mi animore...5th is to be more cheerful lyk I always do so that those around mi will be as cheerful as mi...even though I am sad oso....I dun wan ppl gt worried abt mi esp.XiuYi jie, Hew Yenn n Jie Fang jie....I dunoe how 2 thank them 4 being so patient wif mi n let mi have a gd times in PY all these while.....they make mi erase all those sad tinks happen in PY n put up those happy moments I have wif 303....lolx…isn't tis better than anitink on tis world...I’m soooo fortunate....I've smthg nt everybody has....wat more can I ask 4???I noe!!!tat is on my next resolution....6th is to get a MP3....I wan Zen Micro!!!tis yr noe wat 2 ask 4 tis birthdae 2 my dad....lolx....I love Zen Micro lorx....it is soooooo cute lehz....is my palm sized....then d black 1 is sooo CooL…wait 4 my b.dae my dad sure buy 4 mi de…lolx…7th is d last bt nt least tink is...................okie...dun tell ya...tis is a secret...SHHhhhhhhhhh...lolx....guess urself!!!lolx....happie guessing....okie???lolx....well....I will keep tis a secret coz 7 is my lucky no. dun wan spoil d suspense.....lolx....oh ya....hy n sj birthdae on d 1st Jan nehz.....dun 4get buy present worx.... esp.Mike bro...dun just buy hy's present 4get my senior sj de liao...lolx...jkjk....lolx...

MiCha3L cuM BacK!!!

2004-12-27T21:44:00.000-08:00

lolx...2dae's a super sunni dae...finalli MIke bro 4 back 4 gd...lolx...miss him...lolx...bt Ind0 down ther lyk gt earthquake...at least he's safe n sound...gtg liao...v.v.v.sianx...nthg 2 write...

BoXinG DAY!!!

2004-12-26T22:05:00.000-08:00

WhooHoo!!!finalli my holidaes r gonna b over liao...gonna b sec 3 next yr le...sooo fast...i feel as though i am still sec 1 nehz...lolx...wish i gt 6 yrs of sch instead of 4...then can no nid 2 be tis sad...coz xy jie nxt yr sec 4 le...zhe yang kuai...haiz...tinking abt ur leaving wanna make mi cry lorx...haiz...mus thank alot of ppl here soooo gd give mi prezzies 4 christmas...n oso mus thank those who went shopping wif mi...when i came in to pyss wif nthg...bt now...at least i gt a handful of ppl whom i call true frenz...sooo honoured...nv been sooo happie to receive this huge gift ur gave 2 mi...lolx...well tat is lyk d most impt b.dae prezzie...lolx...i am sure by now gt quite a no. of ppl read d prezzie i gave them liao...lolx...sure is okie ritex???lolx...i gt a great time writing on hy's de...bt xy jie's one shuld b quite wet ba...lolx...sorrie...can't control how touched i am...lolx...oh ya...if ani1 wans 2 watch Kung Fu Hustle...i tink ur shuld change ur mind...coz d show is super lame lorx...bt aniwayz its quite fun going out wif soooo mani guyz n watch movie...lolx...oops...gtg le..bb...

LoN3LY~~~~

2004-12-14T21:39:00.000-08:00

hey i'm back!!!sianx...dunoe wat 2 do nowadaes...super sianx...so watch SCV everydae lorx....haiz...tml gt band...mus practise tenor harder...canot everytime flute de...although flute is my lao gong...lolx...haiz...miss toking 2 mike bro alot...bt then he cum back oso nv sae "hi" de...soooo bad lorx...bt he now at Indo liaox...soooo fast...haiz...wish him Bon Voyage lorx...haiz...nxt time cum back mus sae "hi" 2 mi worx...or else ppl will tink tt u wan ur my sister-in-law dun wan ur mei here liao...lolx...jkjk...lolx...nowadaes lyk everydae band nehz...wish sch can open quick...no nid mi soooo sianx...aniways...i dunoe y prefer sch 1st!!sigh...gtg liaox...gdnitez...slp tight!!!

I jUs+ WannA Sa3 SorrY~~~

2004-12-10T17:46:00.000-08:00

haiz...v.v.v.sad here...reflected lots of tinks...wanted 2 sae sorrie...2 sum1...coz yesterdae pek chek then said sometink harsh...haiz...sooo troubled n felt sooo bad...haiz...if bro u reading tis...i jus wanna sae sorrie...bt u nt online...so i gt no choice bt write here...haiz...aniwayz...i wish u could 4give mi...coz yesterdae abit bad tempered...haiz...dun tok about it liao can???can patch back???haiz...v.v.v.sianx now...quite tired yesterdae...after band camp go watch National Treasure wif Bi Hui...Fong Lam...Chels...Xiuyi jie n mi...go hm slp le...then cook dinner...slp again...bt dinner wake up again...sooo tired...n abit bad-tempered coz pek chek...haiz...aniwayz...d band camp was quite fun...bt nxt time can ur tink of sum games no nid use mouth de???lyk abit disgusting leh...waste flour last time...now waste watermelon...didn't ur mums teach u nt 2 play wif ur food???lolx...bt aniwayz...Hew Yenn nv waste d watermelon...she gt sum on her face...coz of mi...lolx...hope she lyk it...watermelon facial...lolx...oops...later she complain 2 mike bro then die until beautiful beautiful liaox...lolx...didn't slp well in d camp...floor quite hard...air-con quite cold...then wake up so early liaox...then kept on eat uncle Ali food...canot ta han liao...morning eat white bread...actualli i v.qian jin at hm de...eat noodles or rice in d morning de...coz mum packet frm market...then cum2 band...aiyoz...dunoe wat 2 sae...haiz...bt i lyk playing music...quite fun...lolx...my dear-phyllis sae i everydae flute is d best flute is the best de...lyk flute freak...lolx...i dun call tat flute freak bt i call tat flute crazy...lolx...flute is a nice instrument lorx...beautiful music if u master it...saxophone is abit jazzy de...clars are lyk abit mysterious...bt overall i still lyk flute...lolx..^.^...aniwayx...i'm counting down...4 more daes 2 mike bro's return...and 6 more daes 2 Cheng Han bro's b.dae...lolx...aniwayx...bro i'm realli sorrie...i didn't mean it de...4give mi n patch up kkz???

SYVLESTER IN D FINALS!!!

2004-11-19T21:05:00.000-08:00

sianx....sianx....nthg 2 do leh...2dae pek chek...coz of Michael bro and Cheng Han bro...actualli is more of Michael bro's fault...i tell u is he gu yi de...purposely de...felt terrible on d phone conversation...sound super duper stupid...well...humph...>.<...lolx...haiz...jus now waiting 4 d Singapore Finals results...hope SYVLESTER gets into d Finals at 1st of December...he totally rox d stage lorx...he's lyk coool...crossed my fingers...now...is d results...YA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SYVLESTER IS GETTING INTO D FINAL 2!!!!!he roxs dude...lolx...YA!!!!!YA!!!!HE GET IN D FINALS!!!!YA!!!YA!!!Olinda finalli out le...actualli Maia shuldn't be out de...haiz...dunoe lah...now super sad...is it a wrong move 2 lyk a guy???sigh...wish i knew an ans...sigh...*sobz* gtg le...

SyLv3s+3R RAWKS!!!!!

2004-11-18T21:37:00.000-08:00

Yoz...I am back again...lolx...yesterdae was 1 tough dae...afternoon went out wif Fazli,Chelsea and Marilyn[dunoe y always call her Malerine ]...lolx...can u believe???we nearly gt lost at Orchard???after some hardwork then manage 2 get 2 Cathay Cineleisure...tis proves tat I haven been 2 Orchard quite a while le...after much walking first we stop at Burger King...haf a small tea break...be4 going 2 take neoprints...tis time d neoprints were better n wackier than be4...lolx...have a great time posing n stuffs...Fazli kept playing wif the decoration cloth at d back of the neoprint machine then he do d Indian dance...lolx....sigh...then went in to More Than Words then I nid 2 rush home le...luckily made it on time...for dinner at Concorde Hotel,sumwhere in Tiong Bahru...dunoe y pop up sum relatives in d family...they sae they came frm England...kept telling mi tat they saw mi when I was small...sae I dun remember them...lolx...how 2 remember???they sae they saw mi when I was small le marhx...lolx...wa..had a great dinner…so full…lolx…well ...wat 2 expect 4 a 9-course dinner???1st dish: Roast Peking Duck...Braised Shark’s Fin with Seafood in Lotus Leaf...Fried Crab with Cereal...Steamed “Pating” Fish in Teochew Style...Braised Beancurd with Suillus Luteus & Small White Cabbage...Roast Crispy Chicken with Garlic...Sauteed duck Meat with Black Bean Sauce...Fried Rice with Chicken Cubes & Egg Yolk...finalli last bt nt least Chilled Cream of Mango with Pearl Sago...yum yummy...I onli lky d dessert...then time 2 tok around wif my new found relative...jus found out that their daughter is in charge of England’s production of mangoes...yummy..lolx..and her daughter's boyfren is a firefighter...erm...reminds mi of Ladder 49...it totalli roxs being a firefighter...lolx...they also manage to ½ convince my dad 2 sent mi 2 England 2 study after O levels...haiz...actualli I realli 1 2 go 2 England n study bt I dun realli lyk d idea of leaving Singapore...all my frenz here nehz...haiz...bt I wuld haf a better future there plus the lesser amt of stress...haiz...1/2 hearted...veri bu fang xin de...all my jies and kors here...lolx...dunoe lah headache jiu dui le...has been tinking all morning le...aniway I might nt make d decision now...there is always later...lolx...reach hm last nite at 1pm...realised that I am an aunt of lyk 4 kids le...so strange...becoxs they count by generations de...then they r younger then mi...lolx...nv felt so strange being d auntie of 4 kids...suddenly I felt so old...haiz...Singapore Idol RAWKS!!!SyLVeStEr RAWKS!!!he’s sooOOOoooOOOooo cool...I tink d judge sae tat he stand there n smile then his fans will vote 4 him is right...lolx...vote 4 Sylvester Sim!!!1900 112 1903...or sms 3 to 43646...

~++[finaLLi can BloG l3}++~

2004-11-16T21:15:00.000-08:00

Haiz...these few daes gt lots of thinks happened...dunoe wat to do most of the times...luckily gt my god family members de help mi...thankx jie fang jie...lolx...she always cheer mi up de...lolx...well...tis long holidaes suxs...I prefer to have sch daes or band daes...becoxs at least I noe I am doing sometink productive n nt wasting my time on watching TV...at hm is damn boring...onli mi n my mum...sumore dunoe y can slp later bt tis stupid gal still wake up at 8am...dunoe y maybe used 2 it le...lolx...^.^..nthg 2 do marhx...haiz...is nt tat i dun go out de bt my husband Diane...dunoe go where look 4 her...disappear liao...sae holidaes mus ask her go out de bt she lyk dunoe go where leh...then my dear Phyllis genna grounded nehz...haiz...how 2 go out lyk tat...actually 1 go out wif my cousin 1 whole gang de then they haven holidae nehz...pri sch marhx...miss going out wif my cousins esp. those guyz...okie lah they look quite yan dao de...lolx...all tall tall de...except mi...lolx...haiz...at home really bo liao...so I started 2 do abit of roller-blading...well I can sae after much pain n cuts plus bruises then can do abit of real rollerblading...sigh...of all tinks y mus I b afraid of blood???then scared of heights sumore miss out all d fun n games nehz...if 1 dae can become fearless then gd arhx...bt no 1 in tis world oso fearless de...haiz...I noe tat once a scientist sae tt d most common fear is fear of losing sum1 whom u luv...come on I am sure every1 has it...jus whether they wan 2 admit or nt de...lolx...I do haf tis fear…well…bt it isn’t so much more than d 1 on heights…lolx…tats y go Escape I scream until lyk crazy on d Wet N Wild...lolx...is my dear Phyllis n Wai Kai push mi 2 sit tat 1 de...lolx...cum down then gt jelly legs...well...wat I am trying 2 sae is all ppl have fears n we dun nid 2 becoz of our fears ban ourselves frm all d fun we missed...so admit to ur own fears n finalli get rit of that fear...bt sometimes things are nt within our control...so tat 1 I dunoe how lah...lolx...so I leave u wif a question...What is your fear???

SunnY SunDaY

2004-10-24T16:36:00.000-07:00

ya~i am finalli back le...is nt i dun wan 2 blog bt is my parrents dun allow de...i sae exams over le then they sae my sis 1 haven neh...wa...lyk tat so nt fair de norhx...lolx...y????nt fair!!!!yyyyy do i have 2 have such a huge responsibilty as my sis???yyyy can't i have a elder bro lyk Mike or Cheng Han???or maybe an elder sis lyk Xiu Yi jie or Hew Yenn???yyyy???Phyllis mei sorrie if tis offended u...lolx...i noe u understand how i feel man!!!coz we both gt a younger sis born in 1993 de...tats y...lolx...you n mi onli difference in 11 daes nia...lolx...11...my lucky number...lolx...tat time pri 5...i 11 yrs old...index no. 11...birthdae date oso 11...so qiao...lolx...jus now search through all d old stuffs...letters frm Lynette...n oso gt other ppl give de...lolx...dun have guyz give 1...lolx...all galz de...lolx...i scared ppl mistaken so lyk tat sae lorx...lolx...so sianx...tats y dig out all tis...gt Lucinda's letter oso...bt onli 1...mostly Lynette's letter...i tot last time angry wif Lucinda tat time tore away d letter then throw away in front of her eyes into the trash bin de...bt of all the tinks i found the most memorable tink is......*drums roll*.....my formation paper...coz reminds mi of my 3/4 journey through SYF...so sad...i still remembered how much i regretted my decision on quiting SYF the last min...althought the paper now v.torn and tattered...i culdn't bear 2 throw it away...i took a lot of scotch tape to tape it back 2 its orginal grandeur...lolx...find time i would put it into the photo album of mine...lolx...the paper reminds mi of the amount of sweat and tears and effort i put in...bt i made a mistake by choosing to quit...reminds mi of my huge mistake...i am nt going 2 make tis mistake again...i noe myself...lolx...gtg le...grandmother hse...

[~yiP3333!!!!!!3xamS oV3r L3!!!~]

2004-10-13T17:47:00.000-07:00

ya~exams over le...but tis gal here sick neh...how???lolx...have 2 stay at hm lorx...sigh...v.sad still...worried abt so many tinks de...so tat so many sickness pop up de...lolx...sigh...worried abt exams results...well...honestly i am scared tat my results dun get mi into d sci class...sigh...the chances going in is like 0...lolx...maths paper suxs...totally...lolx...well...sigh...she herself dunoe y hate holidays so much...she hates staying at home...coz v.bored...she hates going home...honestly...most ppl sae that ur hm is still the best...she doesn't tink so...coz her parents lyks to suan her...abt her new faith...y???y????she ask herself y her parents can't understand???one day she noes tat they will...becoz God haven't touched their hearts...she's still waiting 4 God 2 touch their hearts and not hardened them instead...she believes that tis would happen...bt it seems lyk it would take a miracle...lolx...bt she believes...lolx...i,here nid a miracle!!!!lolx...didn't work...lolx...i jus remembered i am nt a witch or watsoeva...lolx...rotfl...lolx...sigh...must plan bbq...lolx...must plan nice 1...v.boring then no gd...lolx...so many ppl haven pay yet worx...onli tat hyena and tat beanstalk did...lolx...wat happen to jie,chamelon,bee and every1 else???lolx...every1 gt a name eh??including mi...lolx...i am a crab...lolx...coz everydae tok crap marhx...lolx...hew yenn is bee...coz i tink she is a gal wif a v.unique and striking personality lyk the bee...lolx...Michael bro is chamelon...coz his mood sometimes swings as fast as the chamelon changing colours on its bodies and he is spiky...Jie Fang jie is penguin...coz she look lyk d penguin sooo cute...Jimmy bro is beanstalk...coz he sooo tall lyk d story Jack and the beanstalk tat 1...Marilyn is pig...coz tats her trademark canot anihow change later she kill mi arhx...Xiu Yi jie is cucumber...coz she is always calm and cool lyk 1...Dominic Ong is hyena...coz he gt a v.unique sense of humour...he laugh no 1 laugh de...Cheng Han bro is polar bear...coz...............................................................................lolx....i tink ur shuld noe ba...lolx....rotfl....go figure out urself....lolx...no wonder jie fang jie sae i childish de...bt she oso marhx...always disturb cheng han bro oily skin...then he sae back stupid hole...issit tat more childish??????i guess tat game i play d MRT colour n black train outdated le...mus cum up wif new 1...bt gt quite used 2 tat game until exam time oso shout black train...white train...colour train...blue train...health train...calsberg train...then phyllis oso lock her fingers coz she scared marhx...lolx...aniway...she passed 2 mi her fever lorx...thank you v.much ar...lolx...getting more n more sarcastic these daes...lolx...pass fever nvm coz now onli gt slight 1 bt she passed mi her flu and her sore throat too....i dun lyk sore throat coz i canot tok...n tis gal here 1 min dun tok is equals to killing her lorx...must y shoot her 2 death better worx...lolx...sigh...gtg le...till nxt time i blog i tell u more kkz???lolx...bye~

[~BoRinG SuNd@Y~]

2004-10-10T18:05:00.000-07:00

Sigh...i am finally back frm all tat exams...stress...n homework...2dae's mood is better...so much more peaceful n calm...bt a bit blue de...sigh...exams here sumore...i keep telling myself mus make it in Sci class de...bt at last oso gt so damn stressed up...although i am an ordinary gal in tis extraordinary lousy school...nt tis SUPER small Singapore...sigh...wat to do???migrate ar???to??? Sweden???Tokoyo???New Zealand???Paris???lolx...nv tot of it be4...i simply luv it here becoz......*well tats a secret*....shhhhhh......dun tell ppl ar....esp. those hu noe de....lolx....sigh a few dae ago watch tat show The Exodist...or wateva...coz i dunoe how 2 spell...*shivering*hate that show...it gives mi the spooks....even now....sigh...ppl may laugh at mi n sae i am so big alreadi i still scared...bt tis here is the same old Cheryl as be4...well...nowadays i sleep with the lights on...coz i am scared of the dark...nt becozs of d demon...then my dad or mum will cum n off the light when i sleep...bt in the night i sumhow manage 2 walk there n on the light again...dunoe y...thankx to mtis person who tok 2 mi the other nite n oso accompany mi home...tis person is none other than my jie...XiuYi...lolx...thankx alot...well...n still gt sum1 who tok 2 mi 2 calm mi down...although he sae i lyk v.useless lyk tat...bt thankx aniway Cheng Han bro...hahax...sigh....after all that i gt no peace le...pictures flashing across my mind n stuffs...bt at least my faith is still there...lolx...sigh...tml gt Geog exams...abit scared lah...cox d next day is Maths...lolx...my worst sub...okokok...now i better due to Mayhs Clinic...lolx....my maths finalli picking up le....gtg...oh ya...gt a new bro 2dae...so happy...universeral brotherhood eh???lolx...well let your go guess is who....lolx......

~+Home Econmics[Practical]+~

2004-10-06T21:37:00.000-07:00

hihix...haha...tis few daes gt go online thats y can blog...lolx...today prac exams very difficult...coz have to run here and there help my fren...time's up le...she haven bake yet!!!aiyo make mi so worried...coz mine oso haven't done yet de!!!thankx to Jie Fang and Chel's msgs in the middle of the exams to help mi to calm down de...thankx wor...tat time wan to exam hor 4got the temperature 4 baking neh!!!luckily i msg michael then he remember de...phew...he saved my life...exam to mi everytink all panic...n panic...n panic...nthg bt panic...scared ma...sumore yesterdae that brownies turn out v.bad i tink...ppl jus try 2 be nice n sae nice de...hey hey...isn't honesty the best policy???yesterdae most ppl sae nice except tat s.guy wor...complain n complain de...he nv help us bt still complain...his brain sure nthg bt complaining and whining de...bt still touched coz gt ppl eat my brownies and sae nice lah...esp. Chel coz she told mi sae todae d brownies nice or nt she sure will eat de...thankx...last yr i cook yang chou fried rice bt then no 1 wans 2 eat so i throw away...waste food...bt tis yr nv...thankx god...i noe sum ppl nv eat my brownies...next time kkx???i gurrantee...after sch todae gt carried away de...suppose to meet Diane n Phyllis dear 4 lunch bt i sumhow gt carried away then follow Hew Yenn,Jie Fang they all wif Chel to Mac...actualli tot i broke de bt sumhow managed 2 find 5 bucks in there wor...aiyo...so lucky!!!lolx...when leaving Mac...sumhow my mood beginning swinging...then becom sad lo...dunoe y...these few dae lyk tat so nxt time c mi lyk tat mus pardon mi ar???lolx...i,hy n Chel nv go hm bt go 2 Mac in Bedok Reservoir 1 n study...actualli i didn't do anitink wor...sigh...rather than going hm....lolx...sigh...2nite mus take cafeine mus do abit of touch up on the prepartory work on art...coz i tink v.ugly...gtg...bb

2004-10-05T01:54:00.000-07:00

Yoz!long time never update tis blog le...Thankx 2 jie n Chel tat tis blog came out so well...lolx...at last can type smthg out le...lolx...sorrie 4 those ppl who came in my blog n saw a blank page bt is my mum dun allow de...sigh...luckily now at Michael hse using com so can type...went 2 his hse to bake brownies de...now waiting 4 brownies 2 harden in his oven...lolx...hope it turns out well...lolx...hehex...tml gt Home Econs Practical...scared...coz wan 2 bake brownies bt so long nv try le...just now had lots of fun mixing the mixture...well...maybe is i too short le...or the kitchen table too tall...lolx...2dae nv go maths clinic leh...kinda miss the astmosphere there...cohesive???lolx...wish maths clinic can be open more often...then Chel and i no nid to sit down outside OM's office down there that benches...smtimes the benches gt spider de...*shivers down the spine*...think i got to go le...must watch over the brownies...